|
Latest
< > ? # |
2002-05-20 - 9:53 p.m.|Scare humor I was walking out the back door to go home from work tonight and I knew B was taking out the trash, so when I saw his shadow coming toward the corner I hid behind an old refrigerator. I waited but he never appeared so I thought "I must be mistaken." Of course, you guessed it, when I rounded the corner he was waiting there to jump out and scare me and it worked; I screamed and jumped. Don't know what else to say so I'll update some more later. Okay, now its 1:41 AM and I have something interesting to say. You know another guy from high school has been calling me, wanting to get together. The one who wants to take me on a trip? Well, he called tonight to say he was coming to town this weekend, and in the course of conversation he said how he'd had a crush on me in 8th grade. I couldn't believe it cause, you guessed it, I had the biggest crush in the world on him in 8th grade. But then we lived together in an apartment for a year in college with a boyfriend of mine, and although I spent most of my time with M (the guy who's visiting this weekend), I found him physically repulsive. But we had a great time, such as it was, it being a bad situation in a crappy apartment in a boring town. So now he has this great job and has his shit together and he basically wants to get together with me and see what happens. My current lover, E, you remember, came back into my life in February, having left his cheating wife. He said he'd wanted to be with me for 20 years and so we've been dating, but on Cinco de Mayo he told me he didn't mind if I left him for someone better. Now M is asking if E is going to get mad about him coming up here and I said, no, he said he wants me to see other people. I don't know, I wonder if its common for people to hook up with people they knew a long time ago in school? Cause this will be like the fifth or sixth time its happened to me. Not that I plan to sleep with M this weekend. I have this sneaking suspicion he might not be quite right. That's the big epiphany for tonight. M has his shit together, a good job, doesn't do drugs, is easily able to say whatever he's feeling, even is able to give money ($2000, here lately) to his mother. E has no job, doesn't have a good relationship with his family, lives off of crazy-ass bipolar V, and parties all the time, plus he can't express his feelings unless he's rip-roaring drunk. Oh yeah, and his wife who he hasn't bothered to divorce is coming home this weekend to see her parents before she moves to New York with another guy. E says "Its the last time I'll see her for 9 years." Whatever. Usually I adopt a laissez-faire policy with him, but I'm curious to know what he'll be doing this weekend where she's concerned so I'm actually gonna ask and not care if he gets mad. Yet E is the one I feel is sane. I've been so crazy for so long that I reject people who aren't fucking crazy! Oh yeah, and the one I'm really wanting to get with here lately is B from work. We can't leave each other alone, but that's probably just sex, cause like I said he can't spell. Well, I've got to go to sleep now, but let me recommend that you all go out and rent Donnie Darko. It deals with a certain specific subject that's often been on my mind. I can't discuss it but after you watch the movie email me and we'll talk about it. Plus its executive produced by Drew Barrymore, which means she basically was responsible for it being made. I don't know if she's been under or overrated, but sometimes I need to be reminded that she FUCKIN ROCKS! Sorry, sometimes I channel an adolescent male, just the dawg in me. Anyway, as always, comments and advice would be appreciated.
|