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I dreamed I had a pet raccoon I named Ruanne. She was the color of green seedless grapes and had a face where her face should be, and also one under her chin. It came out because she trusted me that she was actually a child under enchantment. She could still talk and attend classes for gifted children. I became in the dream some kind of activist for enchanted raccoons' rights.

Then later I dreamed I was waiting at a truckstop to take a shower and this woman sat next to me who was covered in soft blue fur. She wanted me to have sex with her and I thought it might be kind of kinky and fun but 1. she was trying to pick me up at a truckstop and 2. I was waiting on my mother to get out of the shower and I couldn't really leave to go to the blue woman's house. Plus I wasn't sure if it was a mask and gloves or real fur but she looked like a blue velvet werewolf.

Night before last I dreamed E. and I were dreaming the same dream about being in an out-of-control van that was driving itself. We looked at each other and grinned in the dream when we realized we were in each others' dream. Also I dreamed he could cut hair; I wanted a short choppy red bedhead 'do but he said, no, he was just going to trim it so I could keep growing it out. When I woke up for real he was looking at me and grinning and I said, "I dreamed we were having the same dream" hoping he'd really dreamed with me but he made no mention of having done so. I'm not sure why he was grinning at me. Then I said, "Well, can you at least cut hair? I dreamed you could, and I really need a haircut." He said, "No, but I need one too." And I said, "You should learn. I bet you'd be good at it."

1:28 AM Saturday I read that dreaming of cutting my hair meant I was trying to make a change. I wanted E to make the big change in me, but he was going to make subtler changes in the same direction I'd been going.

An overpowering machine (the van) means I perhaps need to reassess what I'm doing to myself.

Ruanne was a baby racoon (sp) so that meant I was dealing with the childlike side of my personality. Well, that's my only side so go fuckin fig.

Oooh, and a "godlike, talking awe-inspiring or wise animal, or one with human characteristics" (5 checks there) shows wisdom that is innocent and simple. I need to be in touch with that part of myself, says the book. So I need to go to school even though I'm weird like the green two faced raccoon that's really a child.

Also she was half human, half animal so she represents the recognition and humanization of my animal instincts. So either I'm finally gonna learn to have casual sex, I can forgive myself for damaging encounters in the past, or I'm gonna want a kid. The kid will be weird cause its my kid, but I'll be on its side.

In other news, I'd like to remind everyone to reach for what they want rather than taking what they can get.

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