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I hear voices in my head, too. Its just that I know they're all me.

My therapist likes to talk about science with me. I don't see how this in helping me except that he asks me stuff I should know from class. Like the A B C D's of melanoma.

Tonight I went to my first meeting of the Chamber of Commerce. I bought a new suit to wear. It was very flattering but had no sleeves, making it easy for my bra strap to show while I was introducing myself to the group. But a bunch of people asked for business cards while I made my way back through the crowd, and one lady said, "Its okay, it made you look more human." Or something. Its just that it hadn't slipped til then so it didn't even occur to me to fix it.

Anyway, I hadn't thought of anything to say so I said, "I'm so-and-so and I'm here to remind you to relax. You all need a massage. My office is at blah blah blah and you can get my number under So-and-so's massage in the book or call the chamber." They all laughed at my attempt at humor. Must've been the bra strap.

I have this friend who makes understatements. She just says these things, like, "I just ate a Power Bar. So even though its late, I still have the energy to sit on the couch and watch a movie." Or after driving through thirty miles of thick fog, she'll say something like, "Too bad ya can't see."

She called me the other day and said, "This girl I'm dating, Amy, is seeing another girl Bobbi. Bobbi doesn't know I'm seeing Amy. Bobbi. came over and sat next to me at the movies last night while I was out with Amy. I was surprised to find I didn't care." Maybe you have to know her to get that.

I woke up crying from a dream this morning. I was dreaming no one would listen to me, I couldn't talk loud enough in the first place, and all these people were coming over trying to sue me cause I didn't want them hanging around my house. Like, first I told this kid to get out of my yard, then these other ppl, one of whom may have been S's sister that I don't like, wanted to use my porch and my kitchen. I kept running them off and they kept coming back. And I thought E was already gone, not that that made me sad but I knew he was leaving to go out of town this morning so in the dream he'd left long before any of this had happened. So when I woke myself up actually sobbing in frustration I was so surprised when he put his arm around me. Its a nice thing to do to wake someone up from a bad dream.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot. Go to the link below, and look at the picture. You will see what appears to be a normal apartment-sized dining room.

Focus your eyes on the clear bowl that sits on the table. There are two little blue dots on the bowl. The trick is to let your eyes kind of fall into a relaxed trance on them.

The temptation is to want to look out the windows behind the table, but don't do that! Keep focusing on the bowl. It

took me about half a minute to get to the point at which I could keep my eyes from drifting.

You must also blow up the screen to full size and turn up the sound, but not too loud.

http://www.gloryroad.net/illusion.swf

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